Count Down

I leave in exactly one month...

I never thought saying goodbye could be so hard, I mean I guess I've imagined it this way, but for it to actually happen is an entirely different thing. I feel as though I am slowly building a wall to protect myself for when the time finally comes. Even though I know its not the right thing to do, I just can't help it!! Each moment I feel as though in a way is my last... driving over the bridge back into Maine, and looking at the sign that says "welcome to Maine, the way life should be." I'm going to miss it all, way more than I expected I would. I would be lying if I said I haven't shed a tear at least once a day for the past few days. And the saddest part  is that the smallest things trigger my tears, my emotions are being tried, but I know I can do it, because I am a warrior! 

Smiles + Tears

I just arrived home after spending approximately 10 days on the Delaware shore with my moms amazingly crazy side of the family. It was wonderful to see everyone, but for me it was a bitter sweet time since that was the last time me seeing the majority of them. I would be lying if I said that no tears were shed, because there were. However most of the time was filled with smiles and laughter while playing in the waves with my younger cousins!