It all seems so surreal, packing for 10 months having to think ahead and saying well that has to be on the top of the bag because I will be needing that in Barcelona. BARCELONA! I really couldn't ever imagine that it would actually become a reality, that I would be leaving home...before college of all things and setting out to create my own path in life.
Nothing is ever a reality until you are staring it in the face, saying how in the world did you ever get here, in my life. I feel like I am floating on cloud nine, getting the opportunity to set off and explore a different part of the world. Getting to live in Spain and being able to assimilate into their culture, being able to experience something worlds away from what I have ever been able to envelop in to my being. Yet on the other hand I am wondering how I'm going to get by without the support and love that I receive from my family and friends everyday. I know that I will be receiving the same support and love while abroad it just won't be as knowingly apparent.
I realized something the other day though that has given me a lot of confidence leaving all the people I love. I'm not afraid to leave anyone because I know that they will all be here when I get back and that our relationships and bonds are so great that nothing will tare them apart.
I leave tomorrow for Boston where we have orientation before flying to Barcelona and then to my host family Sunday afternoon.